Money Problems

It was really not my thing to think about financial matters until I became a Mom. Why? Because I need to think on how to budget our money for our consumption. And budgeting really sucks if you're still in-touch with material things. Well, at least I'm not that kind of person. But somehow, there are things that I really WANT but due to money shortage, I can't have them.

Anyway, this week is really tough for me. Not with my office tasks, though. Some other aspects. Not that it affected my job. I can work perfectly even if my soul is weak, or I'm not in a good mood (that's one thing I can be proud of). But even if I busy myself at work, there will really come a time that I'm not doing anything, thus, remembering my problems.

Well, for once, my brother is sick. He is alone, away from us, has a complicated relationship, and most of all, working 16 hours a day. He's not giving himself a credit. Why is he working that hard? Because he doesn't want his daughter to live a life like his, no money and limited. Yes, all that for money. It's so sad 'cause we're all doing the same, although he didn't have the same comfort as I had when we were still studying. That's why with us siblings, he's working more hours than we do.

His condition now really upsets me. He's stupid, stubborn, high pride. But I love him, he's my brother. That's why it bothers me more to know that he's not in good condition. I know because his girlfriend told me so. And this matter made me cry everynight this week. I was asking him to just come back home. But he won't. "Sayang ang kwarta", he's primary reason.

Darn this life!!! Darn this money!!! How many family and lives will fall apart because of money? Who invented money anyway? He/She might really be an idiot to be inventing something that will destroy lives.