Freedom; Birthday

I felt so depressed (again) yesterday. I know, it's not good for me and the baby, but what can I do? My husband's far from us, and I don't have anyone to really comfort me, especially during these times of my pregnancy. From what I've noticed, most pregnant women are more emotional compared to women who are not pregnant. And it's really bugging me, because I don't want to get so stressed out.

Anyway, I told him that even though I'm the one together with our son, I (quite shamefully) envy him. His "freedom", I mean. He gets to go to a lot of places easily, without considering someone else, and get to enjoy and have fun and laugh and do whatever he wants, God knows what. I know I'm not in the right position to say these things, but that's just me. I love freedom, I'm accustomed to freedom, I'm used to it. My family, my parents exactly, gave me so much freedom that I get so depressed thinking that I don't have that freedom anymore. Now, I'm quitting my job to "embrace" more of that "freedom"-less life. And the only thing that kept me holding on, kept me moving forward, is the thought that someday (SOMEDAY!!!), I'll have that freedom once again.

Of course, I didn't say all of these to him yesterday. It's enough to tell him that I was so depressed, and I was thinking he understood me perfectly (I hope I'm right, though). He, on the other hand, made an effort to make me smile, to forget my depression. He sent me these:
Peace, Baby....mwaaaaaaaahhh

Moving away from that topic, since it will just bring more tears in my eyes (again), it's his Mom's birthday today. I'm planning to give her a basket of flowers, as a present. I can't think of anything else, and since girls love flowers, that's what I've decided to give. I went to SM last night to find a flower shop, but to no avail. I went home empty handed. Today, I'll try going to NCCC Mall, will checkout a flower shop there. I hope I found one (though my officemates already told me there is). If I can't find one, then I'll think of something else. *sigh