Have you ever regretted anything in your life? I know I do.
I can't believe I'll say this, but I've never felt so much regret in my life...except for this. I know I have regrets...but not this much. I didn't wish for another way around...except for this. I never hoped to turn back time...except this time. I never cried for anything that doesn't involve my own life and my loved ones' lives...except for this person.
I can't recall ever saying, I wish I didn't have a child so soon...because I'm happy with my kids right now. I haven't said if I can turn back time and marry again, I wish it's more fabulous, because my wedding was the best it could be that time, and I'm happy with it. And never in my life did I say, I wish I didn't take that job in Cebu...because I had the time of my life there, I learned to live.
But last night, I cried so hard for one regret...and it doesn't even involve myself, my family, my loved ones. I cried because of one regret...that I hesitated. I asked myself, why did I ever hesitate if it can cause one innocent life? Every time I remember that event, I bow my head in shame, and cry in vain. Why did I ever turn my back? What have I become that I was so cold and heartless?
I wish I called out. I wished I asked. I wish I helped.
I can't believe I'll say this, but I've never felt so much regret in my life...except for this. I know I have regrets...but not this much. I didn't wish for another way around...except for this. I never hoped to turn back time...except this time. I never cried for anything that doesn't involve my own life and my loved ones' lives...except for this person.
I can't recall ever saying, I wish I didn't have a child so soon...because I'm happy with my kids right now. I haven't said if I can turn back time and marry again, I wish it's more fabulous, because my wedding was the best it could be that time, and I'm happy with it. And never in my life did I say, I wish I didn't take that job in Cebu...because I had the time of my life there, I learned to live.
But last night, I cried so hard for one regret...and it doesn't even involve myself, my family, my loved ones. I cried because of one regret...that I hesitated. I asked myself, why did I ever hesitate if it can cause one innocent life? Every time I remember that event, I bow my head in shame, and cry in vain. Why did I ever turn my back? What have I become that I was so cold and heartless?
I wish I called out. I wished I asked. I wish I helped.
Melay
1 comment:
Hi, Melay, it's JC from <a href="http://www.kidapawan-online.com>www.kidapawan-online.com</a>. I think it is safe to say that just about everybody has some regrets. I have quite a handful of them. But we can't change time—though it would be great if we can! Maybe we can wait 'till "back to the future" becomes real eh?
As said earlier, I got plenty of regrets, there's not much I can do to change those but all I can do now is live with them and live through it and hope things get better...
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