Ken Lee (improved English)

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Rough Saturday

Last Saturday (March 29, 2008), I woke up with very a weak spirit. First, I won't be going home yet until in the afternoon. Second, I can't think of something enjoyable that I can do while waiting for the time to pass. And third, since I'm living with my mom-in-law, my actions are limited. Meaning, I can't go out and take a stroll. Darn! So boring! All because I had to attend an awarding ceremony for passing the CS Eligibility Exam.

Well, I busied myself knitting (yeah, I know how to knit). Lunchtime came. I ate together with my mother-in-law. After eating, I wash the plates then went upstairs to dress, then headed to Civil Service Commission Office in Ecoland. I was 30 minutes early. I signed their logbook, and my number was 19. We waited until 12:45pm, then the roll-call began. When my number was called, they informed me that I won't be getting my certificate and authentication that day. Why? Because of my 1x1 picture. I used Bacus instead of Mamugay. Darn! I passed the requirements early last week!!!

Anyway, I just stayed calm. After some further verifications, they told us to wait in the function hall upstairs. It was already 1:30pm. We waited there, hoping that the orientation will start soon. But we were all appalled when the actual orientation started at 3:30pm. Well, I was really off-scheduled and was pissed off.

While the orientation was in progress, I felt so irate when the speaker was showing us the available eligibilities for applying in a government service. Why so irate? Because of PD 907. This presidential decree is GRANTING CIVIL SERVICE ELIGIBILITY TO COLLEGE HONOR GRADUATES. Because of this law, we honor students can apply the same level of position as those board passers. Get the picture??? Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

Well, when the second speaker was explaining to us about the presentation, the rain started to pour (SO HARD!!!). The second speaker laughed. "Basta ingon-ana gani nga ulan, ginabaha baya amung lugar diri" (Everytime it rains like that, our place here is being flooded). Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....The entire program finished at 5pm, but we were stuck there until 5:30. Luckily, there were PUJ's that reached the doorway of the building, we were able to ride to SM. From SM, I rode a Boulevard route PUJ.

When I arrived home, my Mother-in-law asked me, "Makakauwi ka pa nyan, Melay?" (Will you still be able to go home, Melay?). What the heck??? Very insensitive question! If she said "Gagabihin ka na nyan" or "Gabi ka na makakarating sa inyo" (You'll be arriving home at nighttime), I could have accepted her statements. But instead of encouraging me, she discouraged me. Not that the two statements were different from her question, but they're the right statements to tell somebody when you don't even know what he/she feels. I just said "Opo, Ma" (Yes, Ma), and hurried upstairs to get my things, then left (hurriedly, too).

I waited at Roxas for a taxi but unfortunately, all taxis were occupied. It started to rain. Knowing that I won't be able to get an available cab, I settled for a PUJ bound for G-mall. It was already 6:15pm. When I arrived, at the Southbound Terminal, the earlier van is about to go, and I was the first passenger for the next trip. Now that is luck!!! Well, our trip left 30 minutes after. It's already night and I'm pissed off. Added to my anger, my sister asked me if I would still eat dinner at home. I replied to her "Tan-aw nimu nikaon na ko? If niingon ko dira ko mukaon, dira ko mukaon. Gusto nimo mabuang ko sa kagutom? Maayo unta kung nilaag ra ko, dili pud baya jud ko gusto madugay ug uli!" (Do you really believe I've already eaten? If I told you I'll eat there, I will eat there. Do you want me to be insane because of hunger? I'm not just strolling here, it's not even my choice to go home this late!) Now that's me half-angry. Then I started to cry.

Well, it's not really my choice to be attending this ceremony. It's not even my choice to take the CS Exam. And it really pissed me off to know that I could actually NOT take that stupid exam. Darn!!!

I got home 9pm. I'm furious and exhausted. Not a good sitch for a preggy. *sigh
But when I saw my son, all the weariness was gone. It's really true that your child can erase all the troubles you've been through that day.

All in all, it was a rough day. *sigh

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By the way, I forgot to mention. Among the CS Eligibles, I was the only one with such ratings that wasn't happy about the result! I got 88.33.

JESUS

for those who forget:

The Greatest Man in History Jesus had no
servants, yet they called Him Master.
Had no degree, yet they called Him
Teacher. Had no medicines, yet they
called Him Healer. He had no army, yet
kings feared Him. He won no military
battles, yet He conquered the world. He
committed no crime, yet they crucified
Him. He was buried in a tomb, yet He
lives today. I feel honored to serve
such a Leader who loves us! If you
believe in God and in Jesus Christ His
Son . send this to all on your buddy
list .. if not just ignore it. If you
ignore it, just remember that Jesus said
... "If you deny me before man, I will
deny you before my Father in Heaven

Money Problems

It was really not my thing to think about financial matters until I became a Mom. Why? Because I need to think on how to budget our money for our consumption. And budgeting really sucks if you're still in-touch with material things. Well, at least I'm not that kind of person. But somehow, there are things that I really WANT but due to money shortage, I can't have them.

Anyway, this week is really tough for me. Not with my office tasks, though. Some other aspects. Not that it affected my job. I can work perfectly even if my soul is weak, or I'm not in a good mood (that's one thing I can be proud of). But even if I busy myself at work, there will really come a time that I'm not doing anything, thus, remembering my problems.

Well, for once, my brother is sick. He is alone, away from us, has a complicated relationship, and most of all, working 16 hours a day. He's not giving himself a credit. Why is he working that hard? Because he doesn't want his daughter to live a life like his, no money and limited. Yes, all that for money. It's so sad 'cause we're all doing the same, although he didn't have the same comfort as I had when we were still studying. That's why with us siblings, he's working more hours than we do.

His condition now really upsets me. He's stupid, stubborn, high pride. But I love him, he's my brother. That's why it bothers me more to know that he's not in good condition. I know because his girlfriend told me so. And this matter made me cry everynight this week. I was asking him to just come back home. But he won't. "Sayang ang kwarta", he's primary reason.

Darn this life!!! Darn this money!!! How many family and lives will fall apart because of money? Who invented money anyway? He/She might really be an idiot to be inventing something that will destroy lives.