One Matters

It was my birthday yesterday (yey?). My friends and relatives started texting me since Monday, saying their hellos and greeted me with joy.

Almost everybody greeted me. Yes, almost, not all. My husband, family, relatives who could contact me, and friends, greeted me, but one. The most important person in my life didn't call me, nor text me. Nada...(*sigh)

I don't feel like my birthday at all. I was so down, and just wanted the day to end (fast), rather, skip the whole day. On the contrary, the presents my hubby gave me yesterday (pink flowers and a teddy), uplifted my feelings a little bit.

But somehow, this particular one greeting, which didn't come, affected my mood yesterday. (*sigh) So much for having a birthday.

Bad Day

I was trying my best to control my temper yesterday so as not to ruin this day. Unfortunately, bad luck has it's ways.

So, despite my effort to make this day happy, at the end of the day (perhaps, at the middle of the day), all my effort was useless. I was swept by my emotions, and burst into tears. I just wished this day didn't come. *sigh

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I forgot! Added to my sentiments: my salary today is not at all satisfying. huhuhu...This is really not a good day for me. =(

White Lies

There comes a time in our lives that we feel really down. Someone gives advices and lifts up your sad feeling. Then, you'll suddenly feel confident of yourself. You're happy and you'll move on.

Then all of a sudden, when you are now really proud and confident, the same someone would say "I think you misunderstood" or "I don't think you know what really happened". There we go again, your self-esteem decreases again.

Sometimes, there are just some things that MUST be left unsaid. And, thus, the existence of white lies. But which should I prefer? I'm confused. *sigh

Even Better

I cried so hard last night. An officemate told her story about the technical interview she got on our company before. I was shocked when she told us that she forgot about SDLC, which was asked to her by her would-be TL that time, but she became a developer. So last night, I asked myself: "Why did I become a QA?"

Life is really unfair. So I cried so hard because it was unjust. My eyes was starting to swell, but Joemz was giving an advice. Well, thanks to him, I stopped crying. I thought: "Yeah, why should I cry? I can't do anything now, but I can't feel sorry forever, either."

So there it is, before I sleep, I said to myself, tomorrow, I will not feel low. Then I prayed to God to give me strength to continue. So this morning, I walked towards the office, saying: "I am only a QA, but I'm a lot better than several of the developers here!"

Now I'm smiling! ^_^